I can't believe it has been one year since my life has been changed forever. I remember so vividly walking into that hospital, Adam and I so excited to see our baby on the screen...then it all came crashing down upon us. Silence...more silence from the ultrasound technician until we heard the words "I'm going to go get the high rish doctor..." I will never forget those words. Or these ones "Your baby is not compatible with life...you will need to decide if you want to terminate this pregnancy..." What a day from hell that was. All of our dreams were flipped upside down that day and from that moment on I will never be the same. We miss you so much Amanda, not a day goes by that I don't think about you and what it would have been like to hold you right now. I'd give anything to be able to fix everything. We love you so much! Ironically we have our second child's ultrasound tomorrow Aug. 25th, I would be lying if I said I wasn't scared as hell to learn if this baby is healthy. I want to believe he/she is but after our traumatic experience with Amanda I wonder everyday if the baby is still alive. Please watch over your little brother or sister Amanda, mommy needs you more then ever right now!